Being sick sucks

So, I've let mostly everyone know I'm under the weather at the moment, hopefully not being too morbid about it, but also hoping folks understand its not just a cold either.

I'm pretty much incapacitated at the moment, and struggling to stay awake for a few hours at a time, and feeling like a have narcolepsy on top of everything else. Sheesh, really feelin sorry for myself huh? Awk, I'm allowed lol! This morphine is ok, but seems to emphasise any mood I am in. For instance, I feel very guilty about being so 'wasted' so much of the day! And I'm quite aware that people look at me and think all sorts of things when I'm standing in a shop, sweating, eyes half shut. I DO look like a junky or a desperate shoplifter..hmm.. sounds like a good name for a parody of a well known soap, which could be set here in Scotland! Seriously though, it does make me really paranoid when I'm out and about, and people make it quite obvious that I don't look 'normal'. Yeah Yeah, I can almost hear you saying, "You never really did!" lol..very funny..

Happiness and joy are great when I let myself slip quite easily into an opiate daydream. A very nice feeling indeed, still getting immense pain though.

So, I have started to learn to crochet, and finished a beanie hat in a day. It wasn't of a great standard, but I really did feel quite good at having started something and finished it. A great sense of accomplishment indeed! I also managed to find some cheap wool in a few of these pound shops we are so over run by here. Great though, for some things, but shocking when you see what you have bought for £10 and then realise you could get for half that price elsewhere.

I've missed my 'Little Friday Quote' two weeks running now, and only realised on the Saturday. My days are just so mixed up I never really know what part of the week I'm at lol!

Sunday tomorrow, and going to try washing my hair, attempt some more spring cleaning and watch a movie (if I can stay awake long enough)

Thanks for reading,

N xx